what to say about my life?
i don't even think anyone is reading this.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
the power of music
its very strange how music affects me. a while ago, i broke the headphone jack on my computer, and never really got around to fixing it....or buying anything to substitute it. finally, i impulse bought a creative soundblaster X-Fi 5.1 external sound drive from work, and i feel like my life is complete once again. i can play music from my computer again, and it sounds good! i can display on msn what i'm listening too! whoo! such simplistic, stupidly nerdy things just make my life.
oh! i suppose the like...three of you who read this might be interested in the silly goings-on of my life. if not, well, you're going to read it anyways. i work at best buy now. i have for about a month - i really love it. right when i moved to texas, i got a job at target and it sucked ass. getting paid like 8 bucks an hour to manage a bunch of bratty high school kids expiriencing their first 'real job.' woulda been more worth it if i had been getting paid a managers wage, but no.
the people at best buy are really quite amazing, there's some sort of warm and welcoming personality about them all. it's almost like the manager, jack, has put a finger on exactly the kind of personality that he works well with, and has hired everyone with that personality. so, of course, everyone is like me; a good, honest worker, but also someone that is fun and exciting to be around. we all get along so well. i don't think there's a single person that i have met there that i do not like....and that is refreshing! plus, the discount on nerdy things is amazing. it's odd how surrounding myself with nurturing people and selling things that i am passionate about (computers) has really bettered my outlook on this whole move to texas.
i feel like the move has made me mature in some weird way that i cannot explain. it is honestly the only big, major thing that i have ever actually gone through with. i've never actually succeeded at anything i planned, especially anything that was this random. it's refreshing and a bit startling. i remember alot of people told me that i wasn't going to do it, that there was no way i'd go through with it - and if i did, well....i'd be back soon! well, it doesn't look like that's going to happen.
i think i have found a niche at best buy. it's a company that encourages growth and promotion for the people who really want it - and i do really want it. some people tell me to go to school....maybe i will, but right now i love the freedom i have. yes, i have a job. yes, i have a responsibility. but it can change, my circumstances are not static. that is my fear about school. i fear that i will be stuck in one spot for forever. i'm already 20, almost 21, and to start school now would mean having to dedicate myself and most, if not all of my energy to school until i am 25. that's frightening. terrifying, actually. how in the whole world am i going to expirience my life when it's all stuck in school? for some people, school is alot of expirience. my friend robin has seen foreign country already because of school, my friend stephanie is going to new zealand because of her education. my friend way has lived and learned in the UK, malaysia, and the US because of the time he's spent in school. but they all got an early start, haha. and i've already been to tokyo, i've already been to paris. i want to go more places.
wow, i am rambling quite alot more than i expected too, but i am sure that can be blamed on the fact that i now have my music back.
i wish i could find someone who would want to sit in my room with all the lights off, lay on my bed and listen to loud music with me. i don't know. i listen to music by myself all the time, and i get really into it. i play the air drums, air guitar, i sing and i dance...but that's all by myself. i wonder if anyone else can be moved by my music as much as me. like for example...
the song miseria cantare: the beginning, by AFI. I'm playing it so loud right now, and it's given me shivers all up and down my spine. i can feel the bass rumbling against the bottom of my feet. i can feel the echo of "you are now, one, one of us!" in my heart. why? because i've seen AFI live many times before. that particular song has inspired many writings of mine.
now, poker face by lady gaga. this song seriously makes me dance. i am dancing in my seat as i am playing this right now! i hope i dont wake up my parents. and after he's been hooked, i'll play the one that's on his heart. i have shivers, and i just want to dance! can't read my poker face.
is it possible that there's someone out there in the world that wants to listen to music with me, shop with me and travel with me. russian roulette is not the same without a gun, and baby, when it's love if it's not rough, it isn't fun.
pa pa pa poker face, pa pa poker face~
i dunno, i should go to bed.
oh! i suppose the like...three of you who read this might be interested in the silly goings-on of my life. if not, well, you're going to read it anyways. i work at best buy now. i have for about a month - i really love it. right when i moved to texas, i got a job at target and it sucked ass. getting paid like 8 bucks an hour to manage a bunch of bratty high school kids expiriencing their first 'real job.' woulda been more worth it if i had been getting paid a managers wage, but no.
the people at best buy are really quite amazing, there's some sort of warm and welcoming personality about them all. it's almost like the manager, jack, has put a finger on exactly the kind of personality that he works well with, and has hired everyone with that personality. so, of course, everyone is like me; a good, honest worker, but also someone that is fun and exciting to be around. we all get along so well. i don't think there's a single person that i have met there that i do not like....and that is refreshing! plus, the discount on nerdy things is amazing. it's odd how surrounding myself with nurturing people and selling things that i am passionate about (computers) has really bettered my outlook on this whole move to texas.
i feel like the move has made me mature in some weird way that i cannot explain. it is honestly the only big, major thing that i have ever actually gone through with. i've never actually succeeded at anything i planned, especially anything that was this random. it's refreshing and a bit startling. i remember alot of people told me that i wasn't going to do it, that there was no way i'd go through with it - and if i did, well....i'd be back soon! well, it doesn't look like that's going to happen.
i think i have found a niche at best buy. it's a company that encourages growth and promotion for the people who really want it - and i do really want it. some people tell me to go to school....maybe i will, but right now i love the freedom i have. yes, i have a job. yes, i have a responsibility. but it can change, my circumstances are not static. that is my fear about school. i fear that i will be stuck in one spot for forever. i'm already 20, almost 21, and to start school now would mean having to dedicate myself and most, if not all of my energy to school until i am 25. that's frightening. terrifying, actually. how in the whole world am i going to expirience my life when it's all stuck in school? for some people, school is alot of expirience. my friend robin has seen foreign country already because of school, my friend stephanie is going to new zealand because of her education. my friend way has lived and learned in the UK, malaysia, and the US because of the time he's spent in school. but they all got an early start, haha. and i've already been to tokyo, i've already been to paris. i want to go more places.
wow, i am rambling quite alot more than i expected too, but i am sure that can be blamed on the fact that i now have my music back.
i wish i could find someone who would want to sit in my room with all the lights off, lay on my bed and listen to loud music with me. i don't know. i listen to music by myself all the time, and i get really into it. i play the air drums, air guitar, i sing and i dance...but that's all by myself. i wonder if anyone else can be moved by my music as much as me. like for example...
the song miseria cantare: the beginning, by AFI. I'm playing it so loud right now, and it's given me shivers all up and down my spine. i can feel the bass rumbling against the bottom of my feet. i can feel the echo of "you are now, one, one of us!" in my heart. why? because i've seen AFI live many times before. that particular song has inspired many writings of mine.
now, poker face by lady gaga. this song seriously makes me dance. i am dancing in my seat as i am playing this right now! i hope i dont wake up my parents. and after he's been hooked, i'll play the one that's on his heart. i have shivers, and i just want to dance! can't read my poker face.
is it possible that there's someone out there in the world that wants to listen to music with me, shop with me and travel with me. russian roulette is not the same without a gun, and baby, when it's love if it's not rough, it isn't fun.
pa pa pa poker face, pa pa poker face~
i dunno, i should go to bed.
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